Pretending

Inspiration and some time to kill helped get this blog started: Barrett told me that I seem like a blog kind of guy so if its bad talk to him. Another friend of mine, Holland came up with title to my blog- thanks man. Yet another friend, Amber has a blog that I find fascinating, maybe you will too.
http://amoviegoer.blogspot.com/
She is the main reason I want to try this out.



You know when you are a child and you first start pretending? You are a teacher and have a class full of stuffed rabbits and bears, or you are a doctor operating on those same (now sick) animals?

I think this is something that we learn to do because we want to be like the people in charge of our lives but also because its fun. Now in my life when I pretend it takes more thought and preparation and usually involves more props then it used to. A ruler is not a sword, its just a ruler, so I need a sword to be a knight, not a ruler...ya know?


Anyway, this all leads up to the pretending I've done lately- the kind that makes you feel like everything is ok. I've pretended that people I care for dearly haven't left for a long time, but are merely on a short vacation. I've pretended that I'm not upset when things don't go my way. Pretending has turned into something not fun anymore.

Just like when I was a child and pretend time was over, now it hits a little harder when pretending doesn't work and the true feelings come out. When those feelings come out its great to know that people do care around me, and that I can pray and give my burdens away, because without that, without the peace that comes from that, I would pretend that my life was perfect.